Girls Recap

I don't usually do this but after watching last night's episode of Girls on HBO I felt compelled to write something. As much of the episode was focused on Hannah, it really opened itself up to questions and thoughts people have about relationships and about life. It also really got me to question what it is that I want out of life and made me reflect on past actions and past decisions.

In analyzing this episode, I realized that Hannah found herself lost in a version of what she hoped her life could be like. Last episode we had previews into Marnie, Shosh, and Jessa's relationships but what about Hannah? We were able to see the strife that all of the other girls go through but I guess Lena Dunham had other plans for her character. In all honesty, we only really grace the surface of all of Hannah's "relationships" throughout the episodes and it was time we really got under her skin.



Hannah realized that in her fantasy life she might be loved by a stable and attractive older man who had a great house in Brooklyn (obvi) and could possibly support her and care for her in ways that she had not previously been cared for. It took this episode for her, and possibly for us as viewers, to see how deeply lonely Hannah is and what she wants more than anything is to be happy. It's as if she feels betrayed by her own values and she feels that her job, set apart from all the rest of the girls in the cast, is to live her life out loud, to feel it all as she so blatantly tells Patrick Wilson, aka Joshua (not Josh). In the end though, Hannah wants to find what all the other girls want to find - love - that deep can't live without you, soul crushing, have-to-talk-to-you-all-day kind of love where sleeping alone isn't fun. And to tell you the truth, as much as I know that this is only a show, I want that for her, for all of them, because I've found a little bit of me in them and it pushes me to think of things that sometimes I don't want to think of or what to face. I want that kind of love, I want that desperate feeling. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get it back. I know I had it once.

I'm excited to see what next episode will bring us. It took this episode to really show me that Hannah is not in touch enough with her emotions until we get this glimpse of a different side of her at Joshua's house and begins her confession. What we also see is her fear in confession, she immediately wants to take it back because she's not ready to face reality and that's part of Hannah's problem. It's part of mine too. Sometimes we're just too stubborn to see what's really in front of us and sometimes we just have to let go and keep moving. I used to associate myself with being just like Marnie but after this episode I see something of myself in Hannah.

The Aristochic.

PS - If you haven't seen Girls I recommend, no I insist, that you watch all of season one and catch yourself up with season two. It's truly an amazing show and I don't know how to thank my friends enough for making me watch it. Love and miss you all terribly! Can't wait to be reunited xoxoxo